I: Absent

by The Grandfather

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We secluded ourselves in the backwoods of North Carolina for a year of our lives creating, writing, and fighting. This is a collection of the first 5 pieces that were birthed out of that heartache. We hope you enjoy hearing the journey, as much as we enjoyed taking it.

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released March 3, 2017

Recorded, mixed, and mastered at Doc Butters House Studio
Produced by Jason Doc Butters Cirnigliaro

Primary Engineer: Jason Doc Butters Cirnigliaro
Tracking Engineers: Jason Doc Butters Cirnigliaro, Jonluc Lowdermilk, Josh Smith
Production Engineers: Jason Doc Butters Cirnigliaro, Jonluc Lowdermilk

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The Grandfather Wake Forest, North Carolina

Over two years ago, the members of The Grandfather moved to the backwoods of North Carolina to write and play music. The process created much heartache, but their efforts were not in vain. The result: freedom. So enjoy the journey and join us in the celebration. ... more

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Track Name: Absent
I've been stuck in the dark
All alone with no hope, with no home
Feeding on my mind, like it knows where to go
All alone, all alone
You think I wanted this? Hear my secrets and stay silent
You think I wanted this? Grab my neck and choke me to death
What if I told you I wanted to die? What if I tried
What if I told you I wanted to die? What if I tried
What is the point? What is the point?
What is the point to this stupid life?
What is the point? What is the point?
What is the point to this stupid life?
What's the point? What's the point?
I'm so sick of being me
I hate everything, I don't like you
Grab my neck and choke me to death
I hate everything, I don't like you
Toss me out, bury me with the rest
Hang a noose, let me choke till I turn blue
Toss, toss me!
Burn, burn me!
Hang, hang me!
Kill, kill me!
What is the point? What is the point?
What is the point to this stupid life?
What is the point? What is the point?
What is the point to this stupid life?
Track Name: Koresh
I'm not fine and your not fine and that's alright
I'm alright and your alright and that's just fine
How long can I keep this lie?
Come and die with me, please, please
Come and die with me, please, please
Meaningless, we're so meaningless, we're so pointless
Meaningless, we're so meaningless, we're so pointless
Take my hand, I'll show you death
Come and die with me, please, please
Come and die with me, please, please
Take my hand, I'll show you death
I'll be just fine
Take my hand, I'll show you death
There's no hope for anyone

Take my hand, we'll disappear
Away from the pain, away from here
Lies in my head have never been so clear!
Lies in my head have never been so clear!
No hope for us, no hope for you!
No love for us, no love for you!
Cut my insides out and let me bleed
There's no hope here!
Let me hang for everyone to see
There's no love, there's no hope!
There's no love, there's no hope here!
I'll be just fine when dead
I will find love in my head
I'll be just fine!
I'll be just fine when I'm dead
When I'm dead, when I'm dead, when I'm dead!
I'm not fine and your not fine and that's alright
I'm not alright!
I'm alright and your alright and we'll be just fine
We'll be just fine!
Track Name: Chikatilo
I'm sick, I'm sick of being, I'm sick of being human
I want to die, I want to die with all of them
I want to die!
I hate myself, I hate myself, more than you know
So I'll watch my addictions turn into this sickness
I'll watch them!
We will all collapse, knowing we can't live, we can't live like this
There is no heart, no soul, in this
We have no heart, we have no soul, in this
Not in this!
No heart, no soul, in this!
Track Name: Kemper
Darkness is a part of me
I gave up on everything
Life's no longer with me
Life's no longer with me!
Death is the only light
My heart pumps nothing
Hate is the only thing that crushed me
Hate is what crushed...
My black heart pumps nothing, pumps nothing
My soul: disgusting, disgusting
They say I need to fight
What's the point?
They say I need to live
What life's worth living?
What life's worth living?
I'm a piece of shit with no life in it
Hate's what crushed me!
I'm counting down the time, right until I die
I can't save you
I can't save me
Hate's what crushed me!
My black heart pumps nothing, pumps nothing
My soul: disgusting, disgusting
Filthy, guilty, we're capable of too much evil
Too much, too much, too much evil!
I've been sober for far too long
And now this noose is calling me home
All I want is the anger to leave and to fall back asleep
Hate's what crushed me!
I've been singing the same damn song
Hoping someone would sing along
But this bitter hate won't let go and no one is answering me
Hate's what crushed me!
My black heart pumps nothing, pumps nothing
My soul: disgusting, disgusting
Filthy, guilty, we're capable of too much evil
Too much, too much, too much evil!
If you were real you'd answer me
Or maybe your real but refuse to speak
So, I love the anger, I love the rage
And I'll tear apart the creation you raised
Come answer, come bury me with the rest!
Track Name: Shipman
Hell follows my hands
Sadness stuck in my veins
The light is black
Nowhere to run, nowhere to escape
I'll just be asleep (asleep)
In my rotting dreams (my dreams)
With darkness in my veins (my veins)
I'm just fine with rotting in the darkness
I wish I could see some kind of hope for me
Some kind of hope!
Hell follows theses hands
There is no light that comes from me
Just death inside, just death inside, just death inside of me
I'll just be asleep (asleep)
In my rotting dreams (my dreams)
With darkness in my veins!
I'm just fine with rotting In the darkness
I wish I could see some kind of hope for me
Some kind of hope!
Nowhere to run, nowhere to escape
I'll just be asleep (asleep)
In my rotting dreams (my dreams)
With darkness in my veins (my veins)

I'm asleep to this darkness and my dreams have no purpose
I can't fake my existence, I can't feel a thing
These dark thoughts are over taking me
With temptations better left unsaid
But I will show them when I hang my head
Come and die with me, there's no point to this life
We're just wasting time, until we all lay in the same grave
So I'll just let the darkness take me in my sleep
I will be so easily forgotten
I'll just let the darkness take me away
No one will ever miss my name
We all lay in the same, in the same grave!
We all live in the same, in the same grave!